Triumphant Suffering

by Larry Young

God answered our prayers and relocated my family to Oregon City, Oregon in the early 1980’s. We had just rescued two girls from an evil orphanage operation, and God had opened doors for us that we could have never imagined. I learned that trusting God and following His guidance was the key to success, but only if love and humility were the motivators. So I asked God to teach me humility.

 Almost immediately after that, I developed a growing sore spot on the side of my tongue. When you accidentally bite your tongue, it really hurts in a deep way, but then it slowly goes away. This was doing just the opposite! I had quit smoking 10 years before, but I didn’t know then that the danger of mouth/tongue cancer doesn’t go away for nearly 15 years after you quit, especially if you were using smokeless tobacco.

I was diagnosed with tongue cancer as T2 lesion carcinoma, with a 12% chance of survival, pending immediate surgery and 3 months of high intensity Xray radiation. I was beyond devastation. The surgery slurred my speech, and the radiation caused painful bleeding sores all over the inside of my mouth, not to mention it wiped out my taste buds and salivary glands. Eating solid food was impossible, so milk protein shakes and apple sauce was my staple.

My self esteem took a huge hit; my speech made me sound like the village idiot, and the low odds of survival caused major despair. I feared losing my new job, losing my future, and leaving my wife and 3 children adrift. I realized just how fleeting and temporary my life really was, and that I was no better than any other lowly human being on the planet. God had just answered my prayer to learn humility!! I also realized that I couldn’t learn humility by reading about it; I had to experience it.

My doctors told me if I was cancer free for 8 years, I would be “home free”. At 9 years, I was suddenly hit with fast-growing cancerous lesions all over my tongue and mouth. They were coming on so fast that there wasn’t time for surgery. My doctor had to cut them out every couple weeks with a scalpel, and patch them with a chemical burn styptic. This went on for over 2 years. It was called “time bomb cells”. The radiation helped save me 8 years ago, but now the cells that had survived the radiation were replicating wildly, bringing back the cancer with a vengeance. Over the next 30 years, I would have 6 more major surgeries, ending with removal of half my tongue and replacing it with a chunk of my left wrist. They re-plumbed me!

With all the surgeries, agony, pain, suffering, and humility over the last 40 or so years, I also learned a little about gratitude and wisdom. Every one of our life experiences are different. Some folks are devastated if someone just looks at them the wrong way. Other folks have to be hit over the head with a baseball bat just to get their attention. I’m somewhere in the middle of that scale. Regardless, I learned a lesson from experience that will help you if you are facing something devastating, and especially if your life is on the line, and your future looks grim.

  1. Limit your vision: If you are facing something terrible in the next couple months, limit your vision to just one month. If you are facing something terrible in the next 10 minutes, limit your vision to 9 minutes. If anything in the future just looks too grim, limit your vision to the “here and now”. Many of us avoid thinking about negative things coming up soon, but this is much more deliberate, with serious life and death consequences.

 

  1. Get angry: This is totally different than an outpouring of yelling and screaming and making others want to run away from you. The first time the surgeons cut up my cancerous tongue, I felt defeated and helpless and at death’s door. By the third time they cut me up, I started to fight back and my attitude started getting stronger. As the surgeons got bolder in cutting up the inside of my mouth to save my life, I got bolder too. I was no longer defeated or whimpering. I got mad at my cancer, and approached the whole situation like a warrior, ready to live or die without fear.

 

  1. Put God first: Your weakness becomes God’s strength. This is the ultimate partnership. We aren’t in this alone. God has your back, and if your life ends now, the next thing you will see is Jesus coming back to take you home with Him. Pray for strength and love for those around you who you must leave behind for now, and pray for yourself for an outpouring of love and strength. This isn’t about selfish motivation; it’s about total trust in your creator and savior. Jesus is the one with the power to heal and to save: If He doesn’t heal you now, He will do it all when He comes back. It’s a win-win situation, no matter what..

 

  1. Gratitude and Thankfulness: You physically consist of just a couple pounds of elements and minerals… and a lot of water. However, because of an awesome and loving creator with the miracle of life and birth in His hands, you are here today and alive. All we have is today and right now. Like it or not, all of us are just “passing through”. This isn’t our eternal home, but Jesus has promised you eternal life with Him in His eternal kingdom if you are willing to turn yourself over to Him just the way you are. He died on the cross to pay for all your sins, even if you were the only one down here to save. It’s all real, but you have a crucial part to play, by laying your  temporary broken self at the foot of His cross, using the measure of faith He has given you… through gratitude and thankfulness… to accept His free gift of life. You will be able to restore your relationship with everyone who also placed their trust in God, even those who may not have known who Jesus is. This is a major reason for celebration!  

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